I have this sudden crazy urge to read Enid Blyton books. This might be my desperate attempt to re-live my carefree younger days or to regress into childhood. Whatever it is, the simplicity in her writing and all the vivid descriptions still have a magnetic pull on many. I miss those days, and I dont have the legit excuse to read an Enid Blyton book. My mom will think I have lost it. Sigh...we lose so many things when we grow up, and this is one of those things.

On another note, the weekend is here!!! I am not working this saturday, so it will be two full days at home/outside. Gosh, I am like some parched person in the desert who has seen water. I desperately need some rest and sleep. Plus I have laundry and cleaning to do, which i dont really mind doing. Anyways, I hope the skies do not open up and pour tomorrow. My accumulated laundry for the week needs to be washed and hung to dry. So please sky, dont rain on me.

Lunch is over, I am going to do some work now. Ciao~

Its Friday NIGHT and I am sitting home like a duck! GOSH I badly need to get a life. Or at least get shagged...Its bloody boring.

Everyone says I am fat, even my parents. IS that why I cant get a boyfriend? 40 years down the road, even a skinny model is going to grow old. Why cant people look beyond the outer image? What is it with this society that only rake-thin people are deemed beauties? I think I am beautiful. I have a nice smile...and great eyes and nice fingers and smart brains...Why cant I fucking get a boyfriend??? why do i end up with all the junky guys who turn out to be major pieces of shit? I just want someone who takes the time to listen to me...to care about me and who believes in me. Is that too much to ask....
My mom is pressuring me to get married. maybe thats what started this off.

Different topic...
Made myself a quick dinner of chappati and yesterday's leftover minced mutton,green pea and potato keema(curry). Its light and yummy. The pic is a bit fuzzy because I took it with my webcam. Its an OLd dinosaur-model cam. Sorry about that...

Scary incident at work today!!! One old man, shabbily dressed in a torn singlet and baggy pants came into my office and banged on the door so hard. I thought he was feeling sick or something and jumped to open the door! Luckily I thought twice and tried waving him off.

He refused to move and started shouting that he wants money for a leg operation and tried to turn the door knob. By this time my heart was right at my throat, as I was alone in the office and he was creeping me out.

I said no in mandarin and waved him away but he still persisted and tried showing me his IC and some documents supposedly from the hospital. He looked a bit 'off', like he was drunk. I quickly moved towards my table and on the way I spotted the BIG dinosaur metal paper puncher and decided that would be my weapon should he break in or something.

I took the phone receiver up meaning to call my sis to ask her what to do, and I think the old man assumed I was trying to call the police. He said NO Police and dashed off.

What an experience. I should make sure I remember to keep the door locked at all times. Sighz...terrible encounter!

I absolutely loathe working on saturdays. I end up being a big grump on Monday cos the weekend flies by so fast, I hardly have time to sit and breathe. ARGH!!!

Getting busier at work. I should start growing more hands a.k.a octopus so I can accomplish more at one go. Sometimes, the phone rings and I am rushing on something and I just forget that I have to answer the phone call! sighz...

Watched Shark Tale yesterday. Very funny movie and the fish Oscar looked exactly like Will Smith!!!

Long lapse since my last post on blogger. Somehow I find its easier to blog occasionally, because when I force myself to blog everyday, I end up shutting down my blog!

Anyways, I am planning to invest in a good digicam soon and that would be easier for me to start posting pictures in my blog as well.

Had chicken porridge for dinner last night as I was not in the mood to eat any spicy/heavy stuff. Simple recipe but it tasted really great!

Chicken Porridge
1/2 cup rice
chicken fillet, sliced thinly
2 cm piece of ginger, smashed and sliced into thin strips
carrots, cubed small (1/2 a carrot)
spring onions, chopped
red chillies, sliced thin(seeds removed) (optional)
pepper
fried onions (optional)
light soy sauce
2-2.5 cups chicken stock or dissolve 1/2 chicken stock cube in 2-2.5cups of boiling water

Put the chicken stock to boil along with the ginger and pepper, when it reaches boiling point, add in chicken and cook. remove chicken once its thoroughly cooked and keep aside.
In the boiling stock, add the washed rice and boil away till rice is cooked through. Add carrots and continue boiling till rice starts breaking up into desired porridge consistency. Once the rice has gained the desired consistency, add in the cooked chiken and stir through. taste and add salt/soy sauce as desired.
serve garnished with spring onions, red chillies, fried onions and a few drops of sesame oil. Get ready to enter Kai Chok heaven!

Asian Comfort food at its best!!! Yummy in my tummy! Its a pity there isnt a picture to show how pretty the dish was.

Swamiji passed away on the 27th July. I have mixed feelings about this. Whatever his shortcomings may be, it was undeniable that he had this gift to create magic with the dance and music programs he inspired. All the programs left me yearning for more, wishing it would never end. Whether I was a participant or one in the audience, I have experience much and it is thanks to Swamiji. I have no more words to say....I shall end here...

Insanity makes the world go round nowadays. They say all sorts of things, but when they require your help, they have no qualms about shamelessly asking.

I am basically not a mean person. If anyone approaches me for any kind of help, I jump to offer assistance to the best of my abilities and means. What I cannot tolerate is when people mock at me and do not bother to help in any way. Even if they are not willing to render some form of aid, at least the words 'I will try' would be some form of balm for a hurt soul. But certain selfish people thought so low of me to the extent that they were sniggering with contempt when I needed a job. Yet now, they approach me shamelessly asking for opportunities. What makes them think I would? Is it so easy to forget what they said then? It was like plunging a sharp sword through a raw open wound.

Revenge is sweet. But my conscience nudges me. It is said that no matter what bad things people do to you, do them good and put them to shame. Its funny, when they do not even realise that they had done harm in the past, how are they gonna feel ashamed realising their folly?

Maybe this is the crossroad where I decide what kind of a person I am. I can choose to give opportunites and not get credit, or ignore and have my revenge tinged with a little bit of tartness. I shall take my decision with a pinch of salt. Ultimately its not worth my time and efforts helping ungrateful people.

Why are people so selfish? Would it kill them to take a little of their time to listen to someone or to go see someone? Sometimes, all someone needs is a few loving words and some care and concern from a fellow human being. It might just take two minutes, but it would really make that person's day.

Its tiring. When you just care about someone and that person couldnt care less. It hurts inside. Or maybe its my fault for calling at the wrong time. But yet, why does it hurt so. I have no idea...

I feel rotten inside today. Cant do much work. I guess I really am pathetic and stupid.

I am scared and jittery...with no one to talk to for confidence and so good ol' blogger comes to the rescue.

Maybe I am just afraid to be disappointed to the extent I do not feel the excitement. I pray tomorrow will be successful. Actually I am in a sort of a daze...Aarrrggghhhh... I am just going to put my best foot forward and impress the hell out of them. Wish me luck bloggie!

I went out to top-up my ezlink card earlier. As I was sitting in the bus, an Indian expat and his son(around5-6 years old) boarded. The little boy had a grumpy look on his face and they sat on the seat adjacent to mine so I could hear every word of their conversation clearly. The father was advising his son to be 'friends' with everyone to which the boy replied that the particular child refused to play with him and he didn't want to be friends.

This charming line of conversation went on for quite a while. What caught my attention and also gave me a sense of longing deep down was the casual tone the father had set for the child. He said that even if someone didnt want to befriend him(the child) he should be friends with everyone and if someone doesnt talk to him, he can always go to someone else and play. This I think plays an important role in how a child perceives the world and the person the child grows up to become. Sadly, I never received this form of support from my parents. They have done a lot for me, but in terms of emotional wellbeing and self-esteem, I didnt get much from them.

The father ended the conversation asking the boy if he considered him as a friend(father and son), to which the boy immediately gave a bright smile and gave his father high fives. I definitely know something now. When I have a child, I will try my best to give him or her a high sense of self-esteem. Sometimes, a few words can really go a long way...

There has been a long lapse since my last post. It is not as if there has been nothing to write about, but its just that I have not had the mood to do any blogging.

Anyways. I am wretchedly sick at the moment. My sinuses are totally blocked up and I have a throbbing migraine. Hopefully my diarrhea doesn't start up again. Its terrible I tell ya! It makes me really miserable and I start moping around the house. BAH!

Ever wondered why everything keeps going wrong all the time? Somedays, it takes so much energy just to get up and get out of it. I keep falling flat on my face and yet, I get up, dust off and continue on my journey. Things cannot keep going downhill all the time right. I wait with patience and hope.... that tomorrow will bring better things...

This entry should have been a few days earlier....but I didnt have the mood to blog till now. Alas, better late then never.

So this entry should have been on 15th June 2005...

Met Maygs my cutie pie after a long long long time (read, 5-6years). She looks the same and actually it didnt feel odd at all to meet her. I admit I was a little apprehensive at first. She is so cute and she still looks like the little girl I got to know many years ago. I think maygs was about 6 or 7 and we were in the same Veena class.

Anyways, Maygs graciously agreed to meet me at Plaza Singapura because the squid-brained ME didnt know how to get to Parkway Parade. We adjourned to Swensons and it was so funny because when we were seated, we realised that the place was empty except for us. We ordered food and yakked away...Maygs really gets into all sorts of situations. And the poor girl has a scar near her eye from her accident. I dont think I should disclose certain 'details' about Maygs 'situation' at the moment. *Ahem* Maygs dont hit me ah.....I think you would know what I am talking about :P

Sadly, I had to rush off for a seminar after that so we only managed about 2 hours. But I can say that Maygs is a sweet sensitive soul who has a tough exterior which she uses to protect herself from being hurt. Hei Maygs, if you are reading this, I just want to thank you for taking your time to meet up and stay sweet.

Thats a wrap for now....

Funny...

A married couple in their early 60s were out celebrating their 35th wedding
anniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant. Suddenly,a tiny yet
beautiful fairy appeared on their table and said, "For being such an exemplary
married couple and for being faithful to each other for all this time, I will
grant you each a wish."

"Ooh, I want to travel around the world with my
darling husband" said the wife. The fairy moved her magic stick and -
abracadabra! - two tickets for the new QM2 luxury liner appeared in her hands.

Now it was the husband's turn. He thought for a moment and said: "Well
this is all very romantic, but an opportunity like this only occurs once in a
lifetime, so, I'm sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger
than me".

The wife, and the fairy, were deeply disappointed; but a wish
is a wish.

So the fairy made a circle with her magic stick and -
abracadabra! -the husband became 92 years old.

The moral of this
story.....Men might be ungrateful idiots....But fairies are......female

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What is love? I dont think there in an appropriate enough definition for it. Love is when you care enough about someone that when they hurt, you hurt too and you want to make it right for them. Love is when even the smallest words or actions bring much joy and laughter to one. Love is when you miss someone so much you feel as if your heart has been ripped away and nothing will ever make it come back. Love means you make others happy even if it means making yourself sad. There are lots of kinds of love. parent-child, lovers, friends, pets.....too many to count
Is this why love hurts so much? Even though you dont expect anything in return, it still hurts. I have yet to find love...It still seems to be a very elusive thing.

Had a somewhat normal week. The realization just hit me that I have not gone out anywhere for the past month. That's pretty weird for a person like me. I usually like having some 'me' time and I make sure I go out for a movie or to the library and hang out a bit and then come home. But so far I have not had the urge to do so. Wonder what's come over me....

Anyways, I saw the vcd of Stuck on You yesterday which left me laughing so hard my tummy ached. Its a hilarious movie about a pair of conjoined twins who share a liver and live their lives stuck together. Being a twin, it was especially funny to me :) not that I am stuck to my sister in any way. In the movie, they decide to separate and what happens after that is what the whole movie is about. Very well taken movie by the Farrelly Brothers! Bravos to them.

Argh, I just scraped my little toe on the door and its smarting like hell. I have to go put a plaster on it now....toodles~

ARGH PMS SUCKS!

I have never had PMS this bad before. This time around, I have been having cramps since thursday and I just got my red flag today. I have been feeling like a big grouch the past week and I feel so bloated that I can hardly breathe! Now I am constipated, and I feel irritated and my back ached like crazy AND I feel nauseous. I just feel like digging a hole and burying myself. WHY does being female come with all these tortures? Its as if being the species that has to endure all the cooking and cleaning isnt enough! What happened to equal rights. The GODs are downright unfair. I protest. Males should at least have stomach cramps once a month; it shouldnt be just us females who have to bleed to death each month. HUMPH! That said, I am going to drown myself in painkillers and hit my bed with a book. literally! BYE

Guests from ENGLAND! Why is it that I have to start cleaning as though they are royalty. Its not as if the QUEEN is coming right? I cleaned from morning. I dusted and wiped till my fingertips wore off. I polished every ounce of the silly coffee table which seemingly attracts lots of fingerprints and dust the moment I turn around. Must be a conspiracy going on between my mother and the coffee table to get me to clean some more! HA! I am annoyed. I wanted to run off and go watch a movie but I was ordered to stay put at home. Now I am stuck in my room while they are all having a chat in the living room.

Thank God for the pc or I would have dug a hole and buried myself or squeezed myself through the window!

I warned you that I was back with a vengeance. HA! See I am here again. Ok yesterday I made stir-fried yellow noodles for the family. (Yeah, I had an ambulance on stand-by, but thankfully we didnt have to use it :P) I didnt follow any recipe though so measurements will be by taste. Here's the recipe. Picture will be up soon!

Rathi's Noodles
Yellow Noodles- 250gm
Prawns- 10 cleaned and de-veined, keep prawn heads aside for stock
Fishballs- 5 cut into halves
Chye Sim- as much as u want! approx 8-10 stalks washed and chopped into 4cm lengths
Ginger- 2.5cm thinly sliced
Garlic-4 cloves, chopped
Red Chillies- 2 sliced
Soy sauce, salt, pepper according to taste
a few leaves of coriander and spring onion chopped
oil
water


Heat some oil in a wok, add 1/3 of the chopped ginger and garlic and fry till fragrant. Throw in the prawn heads and fry till cooked. Add 2 cups of water and allow to boil. add a pinch of salt and add in the coriander and spring onion, let boil for 1 min and pour the stock into another bowl and keep aside.
Using the same wok, add 2 tablespoons of oil. Once the oil is heated, add the ginger garlic and 1/2 the chopped chillies and fry. Add in the prawns and fishballsand stir fry for 3 minutes or till all the prawns turn pink. Add noodles, followed by salt, soy sauce and pepper. Stir fry for 3 mins, add the chye sim and continue stir frying for 3 minutes till the vegetables and noodles are cooked. Taste and add more salt/pepper if necessary. Pour the stock in, toss the noodles around and you are done. Serve with a bit of cut red chillies on the side. Noodles should be served immediately or it will get too soggy, so cook it about 20 minuted before you want to eat.

Ah....My Bloggie, I forgot about you!!! Back with a vengeance this time around. The weekend was great. Spent the whole of saturday spring cleaning and re-arranging furniture in my room. Looks quite nice now, if I should say so myself. A few oddments have yet to find their proper place and at the moment, they're like floaters in search of the perfect space hehehehe. But indeed, after rearranging the place, there seems to be more space! YAY....all the more for me to roll in :P

Sunday was dullsville up till the evening when my cousins came. We spent the time talking rot untill they had to go home. After they left, I watched Blade I and Blade II on vcd back-to-back. Lots of blood and gore but I liked it. Cant wait to get hold of Blade Trinity. Interesting concept of vampires and humans co-existing. Ok thats about it from dullsville for now. Stay tuned for more updates. Cheerio!

Disaster day! Had a mini accident with the soy sauce in the kitchen. Soysauce + Rathi's clumsy fingers = major clean-up! I took the bottle and it slipped and it was nothing short of an explosion! There was soy sauce on the floor, kitchen counter, fridge, microwave, wall, towels and a few more surfaces plus the ceiling even. I spent the whole afternoon wiping the whole kitchen. Argh~ horrid.

Other than that, I am a bit upset that my mom is feeling so down. I hope she cheers up soon as that will speed her recovery. She has a bit of the 'dumping syndrome due to surgery and its causing her a lot of uneasiness and 'weakness'. Sometime's I am just so lost as to what to do to help. I pray she recovers soon.